I suck at...

I suck at a lot of things.  I originally thought I would be able to create this... thing.  To use this idea to create a podcast, youtube videos, tictock shorts, etc.  It's been around two years since I registered this domain name.  I am about to let it lapse.  It is only costing me $10 a year, but I don't think it is necessary for me to have a decent domain name yet.

But that doesn't mean I am giving up on this project.  In fact I think in acknowledging that I can begin with I suck at NVC just as a blog, and try my hand at other pieces, will allow it to transform into something else which is more the right fit. 

I don't know a lot about NVC (Nonviolent Communication) and there are plenty of people out there who do, which is part of why I would like to let to domain name lapse.  NVC was my introduction to how nonviolence can be a part of everyday life.  It's how I learned that violence goes beyond the acts we see on an international stage, or physical or mental abuse inflicted on another person.  That how we talk to ourselves can be quite violent.  And changing all of that behavior, changing the way we talk to ourselves, so we can see things differently, it's a big shift. 
But I think we are needing a big shift.
And yet I am struggling with where to start, and what to do.

Because I suck at podcasting, I suck at writing, I'm not a musician or an artist or a scientist or reseacher, I'm not even a great parent.
So I wonder, what can my unskilled self do?

One of the things I can try, is to publish what I have.  I tried to teach NVC, and it sounded forced.  But maybe other people would get something out of it.  I can keep trying to get recordings of conversations about nonviolence, and start using the puppets in some way.

Here I am, the beginning of 2020.  Wanting to make a difference with loads of ideas and few skills or cash to accomplish much.  Maybe if you are reading this you feel similarly.  If so, it sucks, I'm sorry.  But let's give it a shot.  I am going to make an effort, and even if you don't want to you can at least follow along and see if I actually follow through.